Week 4 - How Will You Measure Your Life?

 This week I enjoyed the “Discrediting Your Fears”, worksheet. It made me realize that I still have my childhood fears that are still deeply rooted in my soul. Even though, I have tried to work through them repeatedly with several different therapists and other programs.

These fears are “Not being enough at anything”. 

“The need to be financially stable in my life.” 

These are the two fears that I have always had.

I am always combating them.  I even have a sign right next to my front door to remind me that I am enough. The sign says, “Let whatever you do today be enough.”

Financially, I have two jobs and my family history business and a couple of other side hustles just to stay afloat right now. Times are hard. Plus, recently I have decided to keep to a very tight budget. This will help me pay off my debts.  

I have recently bought a budget planner and am gathering my receipts from everything and filling out the planned religiously.

I will explain more about my thought process on my new budget in my Launching Leaders Book Report.

Writing it down and sharing my plans in everything helps me be accountable.

The talk “Little Things Are Important”, also resonated with me this week.

It reminded me about an experience I had on my mission. 

My companion and I had a companionship study with another companionship. This means four of us were studying the scriptures together. When we were done studying one of the other sister missionaries started to panic because she couldn’t find her daily planner.

We tore the apartment apart trying to find it and finally I said, “Did you pray to find it?”

“No, because I don’t believe God cares about the little things in my life just the big things.”

I was taken very aback by this, because I knew for a fact that the Lord cared about every aspect of our lives. Even the tiny details of our lives. If I care about it and it is a righteous desire God will care about it because I care about it.

“Okay, I will pray about it.” I said and I did.

I got the distinct feeling to take all the cushions off the couch again and shoved my hand in the middle towards the back again and when I pulled it back out the planner was in my hands.

I handed it to the other sister and said, “He cares deeply for our every day lives. Why wouldn’t He? He is our Father?”

I walked away after that. 

God truly does care about the little things and so should we.